HAPPY NEW YEAR 2019
Well happy new year folks! Oddly enough it took me awhile to figure out what to say here aside from that. This past year has been a doozy. I had high hopes and well, I will admit I crashed and burned half way through. I honestly wasn’t sure I’d come out of it alive. I went through such a horrific depression, the effects are still lingering. What has changed when it comes to healing, (I refuse to just “cope” per say) is immersing myself in things that bring me peace. I went down the route of listening to motivational people, reading inspiring books/blogs/tweets. Trying to do daily affirmations. Fake it till you make it mentality. Getting up early and exercising. Journal. Meditate. Etc, etc, etc. That didn’t bring me peace. I know it work great for other folks and at first I felt like a failure. I mean I am doing all the things. Why isn’t this depression gone?
It took me awhile to realize that nothing was wrong with me, I just wasn’t connecting to those methods and that is okay. Although I do still journal and meditate that is more for slowing my every speeding brain down. I did find peace however. I found it in the garden as I watched my sage grow. I found it when listening to music from before I was born. I found it when forcing my body to hold a bend just a little bit longer. I found peace in the shower as I accepted the tears as a part of release instead of looking at them as a form of weakness. So, Happy New Year. Find your peace even if it isn’t on a normal path.
Smiles from the threshold of the year to come,
Whispering ‘it will be happier’…”
― Alfred Lord Tennyson
Are you ready for 2019? Have any goals or resolutions? If so, share with me in the comments. I’d love to read what you are planning. ❤